Beauty born from pain

Isn't it funny how beautiful things can come from painful situations?

-A wonderful friendship with a kindred spirit
-A once-in-a-lifetime love
-Giving your child the name of the man who meant the most to you in this world
-Strengthening the family bond
-pushing on and through to come out on top because you have been told you cannot

A lot has happened in my 36 years on this earth. My parents split and my Father divorced the whole damn family. It hurts. It has been this way since I was 9. On the bright side, my Mother was an AWESOME parent who made up for it without even trying mostly. My family (who stayed around) is VERY close. I tried to repair my relationship with my Father a few years ago but you cannot force things. I just don't have the energy to handle the entire relationship on my own.

When I was 19 I fell off an obstacle at Lackland AFB and broke my back in 2 places. Everyone was disappointed, not as much as I was in myself. It was a career ending injury that I have never really healed from. The man who was like a Dad to me (See In Loving Memory) was the last person I wanted to talk to because of dealing with a lot of disappointment. When he called and he told me that I could never disappoint him because he loved me no matter what, he ended a horrible depression that I had been swimming in for weeks.

I went back to school after giving birth to my youngest (& last) son and it took forever but in May 2012 I graduated with my Associates of Arts degree and I have since moved on to University of Houston to pursue a Bachelors in Social Work. I have (again) encountered some bumps in the road but I will keep going.

Last, but certainly not least, I have recently begun a friendship with a wonderful lady. I read her blog for a long time before I put 2 & 2 together to who she was and what tragedy had befallen her and her kids. Unfortunately, this was set in motion by someone who was supposed to be her friend. Someone who claimed to love her but just wanted to have her own needs met. So you see, on one hand I feel awful that her family was turned upside down by someone I know. On the other hand, I owe the nutcase a debt of gratitude because I ended up with 2 wonderful nephews and a wonderful friend who I feel like is a part of my family who had been missing.

Beauty does come from pain.

I'm alright

A little banged up from the fall...

It has been a crazy few months and there have been many ups and downs but I am still here.

I have had a shit ton of health issues and had to drop 3 of my 4 classes. I did get an A in the class that I kept. While this should have made me feel better as it was Abnormal Psychology and it was an intricate course, I have still been down over the break down of my semester.

So, I took the summer off to find the answers I seek about the cause of my kidney stones and finish some other issues up so that I can get right back at it in the Fall.

SO, I am slowly but surely fighting my way out of the funk. I am enjoying the kiddos and seeing them blossom. I spend much less time talking to them from behind the computer composing essays and such. I will be ready to be back at it in August but for now I will embrace the break.

I hope this finds y'all happy and healthy!